Now that summer has started, I have so much free time. Sometimes I wish it was mid-August already so that I could start packing for Korea. Ahhh that day will come soon and of course I'll make an update when it does. I've just been working since summer started and taking days in between to relax and basically do nothing. My countdown to Korea is currently at 77 days!
Finally have time to watch a few movies like Garden of Words.
It's only been 6 days since my summer officially started, but it feels like I've been on break for a good month already. I have a feeling that the days are going to drag on now without school and work occupying literally all of my time. I really do enjoy this time I get to spend relaxing and taking it easy. It's reminiscent of Summer of 2011 when I used to spend a lot of time alone, usually just in my room writing in my journal and things like that. In the time that I spent alone, I got to know myself really well and I began to realize just how much I enjoyed my own company. Ever since then, I've always loved spending some time alone just inside my own thoughts. To this day, I can see myself living alone in the future and the thought of it is actually very soothing. When I go to Korea, I'm really hoping to explore and just do things on my own. I don't want to be bothered making new friends and going out with them when I could just save myself time and do the things that I want to do by myself. I guess this is where my "ice prince" personality comes into perspective...

Where I spent the majority of my time writing. It's funny that
it's exactly the same right now, but I'm writing from a laptop instead.
I remember especially during those days, I used to dream about going to Korea. I really believed at the time that I would never be able to go unless I won the lottery or something, but here I am about to depart for 9 months when I used to fantasize about spending just 2 weeks in Seoul. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself the great news so I wouldn't spend so much time moping and being depressed! At the same time, it was this depression-- no not depression... it was more of an emptiness; a deep emptiness that drove me to explore my inner thoughts and emotions.
Just stationary itself made me very happy, like decorating my thoughts.
Because of that time, I became so emotionally intact and stable. I understand myself and my feelings so much better and have become so much happier with myself. In a way, you could say that I reached some kind of inner peace; a somewhat emotional nirvana. I guess what I'm saying is that I wouldn't be who I am today without all the time I spent alone that summer. Let's hope this summer will be more or less as meaningful!
My current savings for Korea is about $900. ($300 more since my last blog update 10 days ago! Not bad!)
Now Playing: It's Love, Isn't It? from Howl's Moving Castle OST